Let's get real: My life feels chaotic and I'm holding on for dear life.
There's been some really high highs and really low lows regarding my own mental health lately.
As many of you are aware, I recently published my book 12,775 Days, which was an amazing and first time accomplishment for me. I’ve also already started my second book and am about a third of the way through writing the first of many drafts. In addition, I’ve already started using the app Campfire to flesh out a fantasy series I came up with.
But there’s more to life than that. I recently lost my job, which is both a blessing and a curse. I have a list a mile long of things I’ve been able to get done now that I have the time. I’ve also been able to focus more on mental health thanks to a lot of amazing stability I have in my life that I didn’t before. I get to live on the lake this summer and enjoy the upstate NY weather. It’s also stressful to lose a job you poured your heart and soul into and start thinking more about what the best course of action is to rectify the issue. My life has been one specific way for about two years now and now all of the sudden that has to change. I hate change, I’m never ready for change, but I know things will be okay (they always are).
Some days I worry I’m doing too much or not enough
In all I’ve sold around 10ish books since publishing it a week ago. I try to post as much about it as often as I can everyday on all of my socials, but it’s hard because I don’t want to do too much either. I don’t know what’s correct to do and what isn’t, and that makes it scary and hard. I also am not sure I should even be working on a second book when I’m attempting to make the first a success, and the third idea I have? It’s a fantasy idea and so out of my realm it isn’t even funny.
To calm down, I’ve just been reading.
My latest read:
This book is the best book I have read in SUCH A LONG TIME. 10/10 for sure, and I fell so in love with the characters. Not only did I want more from the other POV, I found out at the end that ANOTHER BOOK IS COMING IN NOVEMBER FROM THE OTHER POV and I simply do not know HOW I can wait that long, but I am SO excited.
“if he had been with me” follows the point of view of a high school student named Autumn. It starts in her childhood and follows more closely the four years she’s in high school. The main focus is her friendship/lack of friendship with her neighbor Phineas, who she calls Finny. Let’s just say the end really tore me up but the fact that we get more by the end of the year is AMAZING.
My next reads:
I’ll report back after I read these two books I splurged on via Kindle today!
I have a job interview this week and am super nervous. I’m trying to shove so much reading and writing in before then because I want to make sure I’m in a good place to start working again!
I’ll leave you with this: